My sweet Paige...

Came downstairs tonight after she was supposed to be in bed. She was in tears and very upset. Normally I would have raised my voice because its past bedtime and my mom duties take a break when kids go to bed but when I saw her I was calm. She approached me and was crying so hard she couldn't udder a single word out. Her head buried in her hands. Finally she managed to get this out.

" mom everytime I try to go to sleep all I keep thinking about is you dying"

My heart just sank down to my feet. I couldn't help but think about what if she knows something I don't? What if Heavenly Father is preparing her for something to come that I am not aware of yet? All I did was hold her. She cried and cried. Then she said...

"What will I do without you?"

Tears streamed down my face. Again.... I was speechless! I was wondering the same thing? I have such a HUGE fear of leaving this life too early while my children are to young. It's a nightmare for me. So I continued to hold her. I called Terry in and he then told her that she doesn't need to worry about this. He told her we'll be here for a very long time. I needed to hear that too. I then felt confidant enough to tell her that I'm here and I'll be here for a long time.

She then went upstairs back to bed. 

I love her. And I love her more for even being concerned about this. She completely understands where we all go. She KNOWS that. She believes in Heaven. I witnessed tonight her getting older. Her realizing that there's more to just going to the other side....... Heartache comes with that too. 

 And with that...... I am so grateful I knelt across the alter with Terry. I said "Yes" and he did too. We were sealed together FOREVER. Paige, Ty and Stockton are mine forever. I am so blessed and so grateful for that. xoxoxoxo